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Ray J Expressed Suicidal Thoughts on Social Media Once Again After Award Show Drama. "They paid me to shut up and I did!" "I feel bad and I hate myself for it."

Ray J has expressed suicidal thoughts on social media once again following some drama at the BET Awards Sunday night.

After the awards, Ray J had a conflict with a Zeus Network executive. According to Yahoo, Ray J has had it out for Zeus Network CEO Lemuel Plummer for allegedly abusing women, going as far as to call him the "Black Jeffrey Epstein." The 43-year-old singer attempted to get physical with Plummer at a BET Awards After Party. Ray J has been a part of several productions on the Zeus Network.

The reality show star later posted a lengthy Instagram story, stating, "I'm really at a breakin point." "To provide for my family and have generational wealth was always the plan. But money is evil and people are bad and I can't take it anymore!" He continued, "This s–t that is happening is mind blowing. It's making me suicidal and uncomfortable with the perception of reality." He added, "THEY PAID ME TO SHUT UP AND I DID! I FEEL BAD AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT! I DON'T WANT ANY MORE OF YOUR DIRTY MONEY!!" He continued. "I promise you I will be [free] of it all and the world can move on with what is real for me no matter the consequences I have to face on the other side."

The 43-year-old entertainer also mentioned his older sister Brandy, a former R&B sensation, telling Brandy that he will "make it right" and that he "won't let them get away with it."

This isn't the first time Ray J has publicly spoken of suicide. However, his current admission comes amid his separation from his wife, Princess Love-they are going through a divorce. The couple share two children.

Suicidal thoughts and attempts impact many Americans. If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, help is available. Call or text 988 or chat at

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